When faith is hard to come by

As I wake up on this awesome Friday morning it really hits me how much I've battled with my faith recently. When Leigha was taken a year ago I thought for sure God was gonna do me a solid and rectify this situation immediately. One week turned into a month which turned into a year. There have been SO MANY court dates where we thought "this is the one. This is the one where God saves Leigha". After a while I really started to question my faith. I knew God existed, I knew he loved me. But why didn't he love me enough to bring my child home? Funny thing about faith, it's not something you can buy or borrow. You just have to have it. I've had so many times where I was so angry with God only to have someone remind me that the enemy has power too. The enemy had enough power to take Leigha and keep her away. My beautiful child of God was a victim of my enemy. My little girl who LOVED kids church and vacation bible school and the Christian songs on the radio. My child was placed in an environment where she's forced to question the existence of this amazing creator and I wasn't there to help her through this battle. THIS was a direct attack on my family and it took me months to realize it wasn't God doing this. For all you incredible Moms DONT LOSE YOUR FAITH. My husband recently said to me while I was questioning my faith "the enemy WANTS you to feel this way towards God and the church. Don't let him. Keep praying". 

Keep praying mamas. Keep going to church. Keep instilling the love of the King into your children. Don't let the enemy diminish your faith. Jesus loves me, this I know for the bible tells me so :) have an incredibly blessed Friday ladies!!

Kristen